Christian Songwriter's Network

i have to ask myself and ask Him
why?

i am allowed to pen an amazing song, and i cant sing it.
too big a song.
yesterday i nearly choked to death on a chicken bone, ..........and i have not tried to sing again yet. my throat is sore, but Thank You Lord, i can speak fine. it could have been more serious

so, what's going on?
i guess this is to remind me AGAIN, that it's not about me
ever
at all

It is always about HIM

do what You must Lord
Keep me on my knees before your throne

i was wrong
i said in a prior blog that it seems that the last song is always the best.
wrong, wrong, wrong

keeping me humble here........

what happened is - i wrote this song, but i am too cheap/frugal/poor to send in $45 ($35 if i want to go electronic) to copyright 1 song. so i finished up the others i had not finished and sent in another collection. so, my last song was actually nothing like the song i wanted to copyright, so my logic is off. i am wrong.

anyhow, now i will be able to share it soon...........

i have been praying about moving forward and having a song actually professionally done.
this might be the one.

i guess i will see what happens when i post it...

hmmm. maybe not

Hey Ellen,
I haven't posted on your blog since CSN redid them, so I thought I would say hello and I am glad that your family is doing good. I seen your mothers picture on your site after all these months of not knowing she was there. She looks like a wonderful person and she is so blessed to have such a wonderful daughter like yourself. Love you sister and
God bless you and all your awesome songs that you have written,
Love Linda

i was blessed to be incredibly busy in Dec, having many opportunities to share the Good News and the songs He has allowed me to pen. one evening i was privileged to sing for a crowd that shared in common some cruel dx, and they were so appreciative of my singing it was humbling. after the "show" they actually lined up to see me, and i hugged each one and told them Jesus loved them, looking each person straight in the eye. - one fellow told me he used to be a drummer, and how he wished he could do that again. and i told him, "Well even tho your not drumming NOW, doesn't mean your not in the band. Your still a musician, it's what you are, even if your not playing anymore! Don't you still hear the music in your head?" I promised that next time i came i would bring a tambourine and he could play along with me.
It made me realize how fortunate we are to be called to sing and play music for our King. even if we are not playing out and about, we are in the band. that's...

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